Saturday Vibes

Its a Bright Saturday here on my side of PA.

Hopefully, I leave the house because its so cold but its not looking so promising so here's what I'm vibing to on my last Saturday before I'm back to actually having a life (work and school).

C.

Scot's Head

This is from my recent trip to Dominica in November. It was nice to get away from life for a while but the reason for going wasn't so nice.....

Unfortunately my grandmother had passed away so the family made the trip to Dominica to bury her.

It was a nice celebration of her life, we explored the island and caught up with family. Its just sad that marriage or death is what brings most families together. 

I got the chance to see cousins I hadn't seen in forever and literally be one with nature.

The island of Dominica is very much untouched. It's not an island booming with tourism like Jamaica. There are still dirt roads, and fisherman, and hidden beaches everywhere.

All of these pictures were taken with my cell phone which obviously sucks. I deeply regret not bringing my actual camera. In all the rush and mayhem, I forgot to pack it 

:(

The problem is I don't know when I'll be traveling down there again. I have literally gone every ten years (1995, 2005, 2014) which is sad because I love being in a place that is completely and nothing like America.

Since my phone sucks so much I didn't take as many as I wanted.....so these pictures are from Scot's Head.....its where the Caribbean Sea and Atlantic Ocean meet. Literally, you can tell the difference between both bodies of water because the Caribbean Sea is so calm and tranquil while the Atlantic Ocean.....is not.
We also went to a sulphur spring. There are many across the island but the one in Scot's Head was my favorite because it is literally in the ocean, a small patch that some natives carved out. It was so warm and amazing. Natural sulphur springs are theeeee best thing on Earth, mainly because they are not man-made. This one we went to had the bubbles coming up from the water and as soon as you dug your hands and feet in, you could feel the heat. Another one we went to wasn't too far up the road but it was more "touristy" because the water flowed down the mountain, there where different "mini lakes" one could walk/hike to to experience the springs' amazing energy. When we went, it was kinda dark so we didn't stay for too long because no one in our camp like bugs, lizards, snakes and such....
Amazing.
I would mos def recommend if anyone does venture out to Dominica to visit Scot's Head where you can make a little trek to the top for breath-taking views, swim with fishes, and enjoy the sulphur springs.

My father's village of Wesley is more so on the Atlantic side. But there was one beach that was close enough that could be on one of those Corona commercials......"Find your Beach"......
On our last free day there, we took a trip to Purple Turtle Beach in Portsmouth. I remember going there as a child. Being on the Caribbean side, the water was so peaceful, anybody could swim in it and go out as far out as they wanted without the potential of getting swept out to sea.
We also went to Cabrits National Park. A former military outpost, Fort Shirley still stands in history.....another fun thing to do in Dominica
:)

All in all, I miss the heat (which is not like America where it gets to be unbearable at times), the sand, the beaches, the food, and most of all, my grandmother.....Miss Roma or Toma as we would call her.

C.

I tried...

So folks, I tried to do another blog but i am not keeping up with it plus I did not like the layout too much so I might as well come back to my baby.

Ramble on about the happenings.

My new blog was supposed to be all about Health/Fitness and Spirituality but I obviously wanted to speak about other things in my life that do not necessarily pertain to those two subjects. 

Maybe i'll engage in both blogs, see that helps. 

This one is more of a "funny, haha" life situations thing.

But of course, I cannot make about my mind to save my life as I am way too indecisive.......This will most likely be my one and only blog as it has been.

:)

C.

My Last Harrah

I have come to the realize that I am no longer writing as much as I used to, mainly because I have nothing entertaining going on in my life, plus my computer is shitty.
Im barely on twitter, FB I use mostly for keeping up with family, and my IG account has some good times, then theres the stalemate.
I'll admit, I have gotten super boring and this space (blog) is not really useful to me anymore.....maybe in the future, but not really at this point.


So
Peace Out mi amigos
Signing Off,
Curty.

Boom Pow.

Hello world.

My last post was a bit depressing but who doesn't get that way sometimes, especially during a time like this.

Since then I have been to church and brunch with a dear friend. We have decided to keep that going monthly, just to keep in touch and catch on on life....of course it was in Jersey....

I have changed my hair color. My hair is naturally brown and now its pitch black, and since i'm successfully growing my hair out, it looks good (it would look good regardless, but you know what i mean).....a subtle change is always good for me, heck, good for anyone. def lifts my spirits a bit :)

I have been hitting the gym like a maniac and really getting into my boxing circuits. I designed them to kick my ass, and they do. whenever i feel like stopping or throwing up, my old head trainer friend pops in to check on me, make sure im alive then tells me to keep going.....and i keep going. It doesn't hurt when one buys workout clothes and sneakers very often. whenever i get in a rut, i buy a new shirt or shorts or something, just to spark something up again....

I am currently on the hunt for a new job just in case i get laid off by the beautiful state of New Jersey.....which i do not mind at all because i dislike where i work. They are a couple developmental centers opened in the state, they are closing two and those people need somewhere to go....so they're coming to my center. Before news of the layoff hit the masses, i accepted a position in the psychology department and i thought everything was a go, until i never got my actual start date in this new position......of course the higher-ups knew everything was about to be on a freeze but they still "gave" people positions without giving them the position. I was so excited and had a lot of hope then I get word, basically saying you're gonna stay in your current title, most likely get bumped out of your position by someone with more seniority. And me getting bumped means bumped out of a job, instead of bumped into a lower title/position. As much as i don't like working for the state, a job is a job.....

I digress.

My debts are going all the way down :)

I have no store cards with a balance. Since i live at home, rent free......all i have is my phone bill and school loans..plus monthly stuff like little groceries here and there and putting gas in whatever vehicle i decide to drive. i am greatful my parents overstand the struggles of young people and they dont like to see their children suffering if they dont have to. the only suffering i endure is the rules of the house and everyone knowing exactly where i am at every minute of the day....my schedule doesnt change anyways.

gym, food, hygiene, chores, nap, work.

Thats it. 

antiwho, enough rambling.

hopefully ill write more with some interesting topics....

C*

And So.....

I may just be the worst blogger ever.

I should be blogging more because I really dont have much to do and i have a lot of things on my mind....

I have come to the realization that i have anger issues. its mostly due to the position im in with living in the forbidden state of Pennsylvania. I just hate it soooooo much. 

I've gotten too comfortable. my schedule usually goes something like this:

btwn 6am-7am Wake up

btwn 7am-8am Take my ass to the gym

btwn 9am-1030am eat,shower,nap

145pm get ready to go to work

3-1130p work BLAHHHHHH

Go home and sleep and do it all again the next day.

I dont go out, i have zero social life. My friends are more like acquaintances now which is upsetting. It sucks losing those connections especially when one is trying to keep them.

My social interaction usually comes from someone in my immediate family, mainly my sister Cane. the people i work with are a lot older and i really dont entertain them. 

^That contributes to my anger^

other contributions include not having constant positive energy around.

When i went to Kean, living on my own, i was able to do pretty much whatever i wanted without someone up my butt 24/7 making sure im safe and sound in the comforts of a house and watchful eye (mom). I didnt have to answer to anyone, i always had something to do, i always had someone around with encouraging words. whenever i felt like doing absolutely nothing or get down on myself, there was someone there to say...."no, diane. this is not the time to be mopy. Just do what you have to do"....out here, living with my parents, there isnt much inspiration or positivity motivating myself to do anything. right now im just letting life pass me by. I watch people i grew up with or graduated college with and im jealous bc they're making the lives they want.....great job, own place, better vehicle than mine, engaged, or taking the next big steps in life.....and im just here.

I know its up to me to change things but when you have constant downers who discourage every decision you want to make by pointing out all the negatives that may arise with that situation, its so easy to just give up and thats what i been doing. 

The psychologist in me says i go through bouts depression at least three times a year. the gym and running dont excite me at all. 

Plus i have the worst attitude and my anger is at an all time high. but i truly believe this happens to every one at some points in life.....it just happens to me a little more than some.

anyways, enough of my rambling......

here are to random pictures that make me happy

Me and my uncle thats my cousin going to a wedding (left) and the beach in the bahamas from October

Enjoy the day lads....

C*

Sicky McSick Sick

The title of this post is my usual language on a daily basis....for some odd reason adding "Mc" to words make them sound better and I like it, so i does it.

And as you all can probably guess, yes I am getting sick or I am already sick.

I can never really tell.

I do know my throat is on fire and I just drank my first cup of ginger tea for the day, with more to come (and soup too).

So whats new in life?

I finally figured out how to view my paystub and get my tax information via the state of nj website (so complicated) so hopefully next week, i'll be able to get my taxes done and out of my hairs and get this money the government owes me.....speaking of hairs.....

Im growing mine back as along as i possibly can. i cut it short and i loved it but now that im not getting perms anymore (and necessarily going natural either), i dont think im comfortable with short hair so im growing it out. so far so good. I went to the salon on wednesday and my hair dresser said my hair wasnt bad at all for it being so short and me sweating all the time and wearing ball caps to work almost on a daily, my hair is still in good shape......speaking of shape....

(i like what im doing here...do you see it....)

Im still working out like mad, increasing my weights, im mos def seeing a change in my body. im tall and slim plus i run long distances, so pairing that with weights is a great look. im not too "bulky" or anything, more so getting toned. my shoulders and arms especially. i like working them bc i love the compliments i get :) my thighs will always be thick. whether i work them or not. Im trying to work on my legs now....get my calves together, but with running, they stay super slim....and my abs...smh. i can do every ab exercise in the world but as you know (and i know), abs are made in the kitchen. and Im slowly but surely cutting out junk food. im cutting my j.f. intake to once a month. then ill start decreasing more from there. hopefully by summer, my midsection with thin out bc i think i just look lopsided, with everything being slim but my ab area. 

ummm

my parents are in Dominica, have been all week, coming back tmrw.

kinda excited but not really. its been nice just having the house with my brother and sister. Just being able to chill and relax without repercussion. 

something i found on tumblr.
Yes i tumble.


Hope everyone has a happy mchappy Friday
:)
C*

Randoms

Belmar in September

New years eve

Sambuca shots on the cruise......

it is

The new year is here already. I havent been on here in a while..... a long while.  I had a great christmas and new year celebration.
Work is still work. Working for the state has its good days and bad but usually im mostly not looking forward to going in but i will say im glad im in the position i have bc some people dont even have a job, so fortunate. Im still debating a career change, and overall overhaul of life.....where im at. I feel like my life is in buffer mode.
Hopefully i will be able to put more content out and i have a life so i can update. I love writing, i miss writing so i def need to get back to it. Even if no one is really interested......


C.

here.

Im alive. Its true. 

Working at a new job and currently looking for another. I am never satisfied and i quite frankly thinknim wasting my time bc im jot using my brain power and im too smart to get paid to do nothing. I might as well sleep the day away.

In other news im still working out but i am actually starting to change my diet which def needed to be done. Eating the foods i ate on top of my ever changing moods made life sad and depressing but once i starting cutting out certain foods, i started feeling a tad better and my body feels tighter ;)

Ummmm i still have my green hornet, he still going strong but ill hopefully save enough to get a better vehicle by my birthday in june so i got a couple months to save save save.

My life just consists of working and trying to have some kind of life which is difficult when one lives with their overbearing,sexist parents. Life is just harder than it needs to be. I keep telling myself changes in my overall life need to be made but i just feel like im at a standstill. 

The Life.

C*

24

as you have probably figured out....i am 24 years old now.

my sister and i usually dont do much for our birthday because our friends are busy and always everywhere else but this year i really wanted to shake my buns among other thangs.

My sister, and our bestie drove out to Jersey to do what we do best. we went out to one place and lets just say it was WAYYYY too ratchet to our liking.....girls wearing sneakers in the club????

i dont understand. When u go out, i thought you were supposed to look extra nice, even bougy.....not come in lookin how you look on a regular basis......so we bounced outta there quick because Mister C of Hot 97 was on deck and wasnt helping the cause....plus it was still early but i honestly didnt want that place killin my vibe.

So then we hit up another spot, literally steps away and at first, we were like "Eh, theres nobody here, but ppl looked like they were having fun...." so we just said "f" it and made the best of it and Boy, was it a nite. one of my jersey girls/ace's that came out was just handing my sis and I drank after drank. i honestly didnt mind it because i NEVER go out anymore and i wasnt driving back home

:)

Random: you know how they say "All the single ladies, hands in the air!!!!" well outta all my friends, i was the only one single which felt super awkward and a tad depressing.

:(

basically danced the night away and ended up falling flat on my face/ass mostly because of the frickin' foam, which is cool but i wasnt prepared for at all. i def felt like i had a concussion but my sister said it wasnt that bad. i def think the alcohol made it worser.

i also literally ran to the car in six inch heels which is remarkable after dancing all night. i dont know how i managed to do it. i kinda felt like when i was running the half marathon.....it hurt when i stopped, so i just didnt until i got to my destination.

Overall I had a great birthday with friends, after not seeing them in forever. Im thankful they took the time out to enjoy it with my sister and I.

C*

Oh Hello Blog

I have been neglecting this thing because nothing really significant happens in my life anymore where I feel the need to share with people or tell any kind of story. 

Since my last post, I have still been working out, unsuccessfully cut out the bad foods i eat, went to Michigan for a wedding, have an interview for a part time job, got accepted into graduate school (back at Kean).....now I'm waiting to hear back from Lehigh University because i kinda wanna stay in Pennsylvania because i dont wanna pay rent in New Jersey as much as I love Jersey and the freedom i have out there, it just makes sense financially to live at my parents' house rent-free and eat all there food.

I'm still working overnights at my current job and with this hopefully part-time gig, I can get my money all the way up, pay more bills, and save more money than I have been (which has been about none).

Life is tough, thats why i'm going back to school. im not satisfied.

At All.

The Hurricane

At my childhood beach, Belmar

Race day- Before

Race Day-After

Bride and Groom.....Natalia and Joseph

We're Sexy.

Alana and the Bride...cousins

Trouble 1 and 2 :)

I Done Did It

On Sunday I completed my first (and hopefully not my last) Half Marathon. It took place in Long Branch, New Jersey, "down at the shore". 

That was THEE longest 13.1 miles of my entire life. Since Thursday, I have been sick (and still am). I was debating whether or not to do the 5k portion of the day instead because I had been coughing up my lungs the night before and my body was entirely too weak. 

Luckily, my reflection came along  for the support and told me I am doing the half because I've trained so hard for it. 12 weeks is what all this one day came down to.

I ran with a group of young ladies that I respect and admire, all beautiful black women doing great thangs in the world. Of course we all started out together and somewhere along the way, we got separated. When running a race like that with the amount of people that were there, its great to be able to keep your own pace and know you still won't be theeeee last person crossing the finish line. I saw my reflection along the route cheering me on, and im so greatful for it. all the volunteers and random people who sat outside their homes giving us words of encouragement and support really, really, really does help. its surprising how much motivation it actually gives you when you feel like your legs are on the verge of running the hell away from you and kicking you in the ass for putting through so much.

All in all, i finished in under three hours (2:45ish) which would've been better if I weren't sick as a dog, but

I DID IT.

I literally almost felt like crying when I saw the beach.

The Jersey Shore has been through so much and I am glad I was able to donate my time, money, and body to help a portion of the place of where I call home forever and always.

:)

C*

one week

one week until my half marathon. since i last wrote,my feelings havent changed,im still scared.hopefully ill have enough confidence to finish the race decently. since moving back home (to PA) i've been lacking all types of confidence and my self-esteem gets low. theres absolutely no motivation to help me get to where i wanna be. in a way,i kinda feel like im just stuck here, working to pay bills and barely saving. im literally on the verge of getting a second full time job just so i can have a little extra something for myself and not feel guilty about spending.
overall, life after college is shit.
i recommend,if you dont think  you need to go to college,dont. youre wasting money and time.sure do a technical school or something......but a four year degree doesn't mean what it used to.
thats where im at right now with life.

C.

the challenge

i know i have been missing action.....i finally signed up for a  half marathon  and honestly theres no turning back. i paid for it, i booked my hotel&i've started training. i am really scared and intimidated by a race of this magnitude. 

13.1 miles

thats a whole lotta steps to be taking.

so as for right now,thats my life.....

along with work,tryna find another job&deciding when im going back to school money makes the world go round and i simply dont have it......as much as i been trying to save,its just tough.

but im happy i am where i am 

just never satisfied.

peace&love.

Curty

My Happy

Its a New Year and everyone wants to get on that "new you" shindig. 

I dont get it.

 I myself am keeping up with the great things I been doing and trying to eliminate the negative which is harder said than done.

Its only four days into the new year and I can already say its been good.

lol

Just stay happy and keep negative thoughts out.

Smile and hold the door open for someone.

Be polite as to not get your food spit in.....

That last one is literally what i live by

lol

 What makes me happy.....

Running.

Traveling.

H2O.

Fruit.

Great Women.

Confident Men.

Sunshine.

Almost any couch :)

CAKE.

Love.

Growth.

Prosperity.

some of my familia.

some of my friends.

All of the people in my life

:)

I got ya back jack.

Peace&Love.

Curty*

P.S. I absolutely LOVE LOVE LOVE Alicia Keys' new album.....GIRL ON FIRE.

#dasit

I Wanna Dance

Yep

Das it

I wanna shake my buns at some point this weekend because I haven't been out in a while.

Peace&Love.

The Cuddyer

:)

Scally

working late nights has me glued to VH1 Soul.

Literally.

I dont have that channel at home so its all i really watch while at work (and ESPN) and talk to my boy.

Thats what i do after i do an hours-worth of work on a 12 hour shift.

Eh what can ya do.

Really cant complain because i have a job but I am looking for another because these bills are no joke and i would really like to save money.

i just figured out my budget for the month and where i need to cut back....i need to cut back on everything lol

no shopping whatsoever.

at all.

only to make recipes.

no unnecessary spending at any demon-mall

lol

im only gonna go out when its free and i only have to pay for gas.....which is hardly ever.

I really do wanna do something for new years' though because its been a great year and i never really do anything special beacause no one invites me anywhere because they think i live 3 hours away from civilization.
Hopefully my friends will actually come out if i plan something.....in PA or Jersey.
Or i'll just hang out with my friend in Jersey....since he actually has a life.

Peace&Love

Curty*

Its The Div

New PAC DIV ENJOY. U KNOW I ALWAYS DO. Luvin' C*

Christmas Mayhem

This is all I really want for Christmas.

Julia Roberts' Eat Pray Love on DVD

and 

The Kindle Fire HD.

I love that movie. I watched while I was doing a long 12-hour shift at work and I couldn't stop smiling. Julia Roberts is an amazing actress.

And the Kindle is because I would like something more handy other than my phone. Using that thing 24/7 hurts my hands.

No bueno.

Plus my eyes are getting worst and I need something bigger since I'm not carrying my laptop around. I also realized the only reason i really have my laptop is to write papers and since i'm currently not a student (and dont know how long i wont be...)i hardly turn my computer on.....and its a hassle  The charger is so dead, held together with duct tape and my computer can't stay on for 5 minutes without it being plugged up because the battery has been demolished.

After I buy my car, i'll buy a computer if i really need it.

Oh snap, how could i forget Thanksgiving yesterday.....I worked until 9am just to wake up and go to jersey to hang with family and leave early to be back at work for 9pm 

:(

not fun, because my family is always one for great times and although i experienced some of it,i would've preferred all but i'll take what i can get.

 Im just thankful.

And no I havent left my house since i've woken up. People and they crazy black friday antics. everyone in my family is grown and we not about that life anymore. anything we "want" for christmas are wants and not needs so its not imperative we go out and freeze our buns off.

Welp, as usual im home alone on a friday night, watching football. i guess ill run, workout, and put up the christmas tree tonight.

Good Deal

Peace&Love,

Curty