Randoms

Belmar in September

New years eve

Sambuca shots on the cruise......

it is

The new year is here already. I havent been on here in a while..... a long while.  I had a great christmas and new year celebration.
Work is still work. Working for the state has its good days and bad but usually im mostly not looking forward to going in but i will say im glad im in the position i have bc some people dont even have a job, so fortunate. Im still debating a career change, and overall overhaul of life.....where im at. I feel like my life is in buffer mode.
Hopefully i will be able to put more content out and i have a life so i can update. I love writing, i miss writing so i def need to get back to it. Even if no one is really interested......


C.

here.

Im alive. Its true. 

Working at a new job and currently looking for another. I am never satisfied and i quite frankly thinknim wasting my time bc im jot using my brain power and im too smart to get paid to do nothing. I might as well sleep the day away.

In other news im still working out but i am actually starting to change my diet which def needed to be done. Eating the foods i ate on top of my ever changing moods made life sad and depressing but once i starting cutting out certain foods, i started feeling a tad better and my body feels tighter ;)

Ummmm i still have my green hornet, he still going strong but ill hopefully save enough to get a better vehicle by my birthday in june so i got a couple months to save save save.

My life just consists of working and trying to have some kind of life which is difficult when one lives with their overbearing,sexist parents. Life is just harder than it needs to be. I keep telling myself changes in my overall life need to be made but i just feel like im at a standstill. 

The Life.

C*

24

as you have probably figured out....i am 24 years old now.

my sister and i usually dont do much for our birthday because our friends are busy and always everywhere else but this year i really wanted to shake my buns among other thangs.

My sister, and our bestie drove out to Jersey to do what we do best. we went out to one place and lets just say it was WAYYYY too ratchet to our liking.....girls wearing sneakers in the club????

i dont understand. When u go out, i thought you were supposed to look extra nice, even bougy.....not come in lookin how you look on a regular basis......so we bounced outta there quick because Mister C of Hot 97 was on deck and wasnt helping the cause....plus it was still early but i honestly didnt want that place killin my vibe.

So then we hit up another spot, literally steps away and at first, we were like "Eh, theres nobody here, but ppl looked like they were having fun...." so we just said "f" it and made the best of it and Boy, was it a nite. one of my jersey girls/ace's that came out was just handing my sis and I drank after drank. i honestly didnt mind it because i NEVER go out anymore and i wasnt driving back home

:)

Random: you know how they say "All the single ladies, hands in the air!!!!" well outta all my friends, i was the only one single which felt super awkward and a tad depressing.

:(

basically danced the night away and ended up falling flat on my face/ass mostly because of the frickin' foam, which is cool but i wasnt prepared for at all. i def felt like i had a concussion but my sister said it wasnt that bad. i def think the alcohol made it worser.

i also literally ran to the car in six inch heels which is remarkable after dancing all night. i dont know how i managed to do it. i kinda felt like when i was running the half marathon.....it hurt when i stopped, so i just didnt until i got to my destination.

Overall I had a great birthday with friends, after not seeing them in forever. Im thankful they took the time out to enjoy it with my sister and I.

C*

Oh Hello Blog

I have been neglecting this thing because nothing really significant happens in my life anymore where I feel the need to share with people or tell any kind of story. 

Since my last post, I have still been working out, unsuccessfully cut out the bad foods i eat, went to Michigan for a wedding, have an interview for a part time job, got accepted into graduate school (back at Kean).....now I'm waiting to hear back from Lehigh University because i kinda wanna stay in Pennsylvania because i dont wanna pay rent in New Jersey as much as I love Jersey and the freedom i have out there, it just makes sense financially to live at my parents' house rent-free and eat all there food.

I'm still working overnights at my current job and with this hopefully part-time gig, I can get my money all the way up, pay more bills, and save more money than I have been (which has been about none).

Life is tough, thats why i'm going back to school. im not satisfied.

At All.

The Hurricane

At my childhood beach, Belmar

Race day- Before

Race Day-After

Bride and Groom.....Natalia and Joseph

We're Sexy.

Alana and the Bride...cousins

Trouble 1 and 2 :)

I Done Did It

On Sunday I completed my first (and hopefully not my last) Half Marathon. It took place in Long Branch, New Jersey, "down at the shore". 

That was THEE longest 13.1 miles of my entire life. Since Thursday, I have been sick (and still am). I was debating whether or not to do the 5k portion of the day instead because I had been coughing up my lungs the night before and my body was entirely too weak. 

Luckily, my reflection came along  for the support and told me I am doing the half because I've trained so hard for it. 12 weeks is what all this one day came down to.

I ran with a group of young ladies that I respect and admire, all beautiful black women doing great thangs in the world. Of course we all started out together and somewhere along the way, we got separated. When running a race like that with the amount of people that were there, its great to be able to keep your own pace and know you still won't be theeeee last person crossing the finish line. I saw my reflection along the route cheering me on, and im so greatful for it. all the volunteers and random people who sat outside their homes giving us words of encouragement and support really, really, really does help. its surprising how much motivation it actually gives you when you feel like your legs are on the verge of running the hell away from you and kicking you in the ass for putting through so much.

All in all, i finished in under three hours (2:45ish) which would've been better if I weren't sick as a dog, but

I DID IT.

I literally almost felt like crying when I saw the beach.

The Jersey Shore has been through so much and I am glad I was able to donate my time, money, and body to help a portion of the place of where I call home forever and always.

:)

C*

one week

one week until my half marathon. since i last wrote,my feelings havent changed,im still scared.hopefully ill have enough confidence to finish the race decently. since moving back home (to PA) i've been lacking all types of confidence and my self-esteem gets low. theres absolutely no motivation to help me get to where i wanna be. in a way,i kinda feel like im just stuck here, working to pay bills and barely saving. im literally on the verge of getting a second full time job just so i can have a little extra something for myself and not feel guilty about spending.
overall, life after college is shit.
i recommend,if you dont think  you need to go to college,dont. youre wasting money and time.sure do a technical school or something......but a four year degree doesn't mean what it used to.
thats where im at right now with life.

C.