March 30, 2012

Coming To An End

Well well well
My undergraduate career is slowly but surely coming to an end. Applied for graduation, ordered my cap&gown, took my senior portraits, finished applying to grad schools, and now debating whether or not i want to go to senior formal....
someone asks me if i'm going to that shindig. i'm not sure i want to go because its basically high school prom on an upscale level....which would be fun if i didnt go to prom...but i did....
thinking and debating.
Plus everything costs money and Kean sure does know how to extort green outta folk.
And i would like to have an actual date for this little extravaganza. 
I already have someone in mind, but we just started talking and i think its too soon.
but we'll see how the cookie crumbles.
Luvin' C*

March 25, 2012

She Said....

This Spring Break has been alright. I came home on Thursday and I leave Pa today at some point. I basically did nothing 
My grandma is in the states from Dominica and she's here visiting us in the boondocks and so far, she likes it up here
Mostly because there's someone around to keep her company,whereas in Jersey with the rest of the family, everyone's busy working or tied to an electrical device
So these last three days, i been chillin' w/my grandmomz :)
we're both sick, so i guess we're talking care of each other....
Antiwho, i took a break from my gram and my sisi and i did a little shopping. Went to Marshall's for workout clothes then decided to go to a fortune teller....if that's what they're even called anymore. 
I was kind of nervous but moreso extremely excited
She did us separately and read our palms.
I dont know if im supposed to be disclosing this info, but i gotta tell someone other than my reflection and im pretty sure no one reads my blog soooooo
I'm so positive. I keep a positive energy around me, no matter how defeated i may feel. I always find a way to make myself feel better or cheer someone else up.
I will be successful in everything i take on. 
I cannot lose.
I have all the tools to do what i want and get it.
She also said my intelligence is only peaking and im smarter than i think, just gotta find a way to demonstrate it. so there is more smartness in this brain i have here.
I am also spreading myself too thin. i have to learn to sit back and let people do what needs to be done so i can relax and a man can def help with that...more on that later :)
Some people who are supposedly my "friends" really aren't. They once were, but as I started moving up in positions (work and my club) and succeeding in most everything i put my mind to (getting into grad school and continuing on the workout/healthy lifestyle), ppl that i think are close to me are really jealous and display negative energy and even though i know how not to be bothered by such people, i should just eliminate them from my circle.
I kinda know who these people are.

I will never be happy with someone my age, meaning someone 2-4 years older/younger than me. i'm too mature for guys like that and older men (26+) recognize that and that is why i am attracted to them and they're attracted to me. Majority of the guys that i do talk to that have some years on me aren't suckas either....they are mature, home, no kids, looking for the right woman. These guys would never stare me wrong or try to take advantage of me because im too witty to let anyone try that ish.....
also, the man that i do want, we will never be in a legit relationship. we'll always remain "friends" and really nothing more.
When she said all this, i was smiling from ear to ear because people that know me know how i likes my mens..
She also said i need stability. which is def true because i am a nomad. I go back and forth from Pa and Jersey and when i'm in Jersey, i dont stay in one place for too long. The money will come sooner than i think and i will get the place i deserve where i can be stable and call it mine. 
and back to relationships....even though i have a beautiful pool of legit men i can choose from, they all want to offer me what i need....stability and companionship. i shouldn't be afraid of love regardless of what my family says!!!!
she said that and my face dropped because in the back of my mind, i always think "what would my parents think?" regardless if i'm happy or not.

overall, i will live a long and prosperous life. the people that i need to be proud of me, will be and I will not disappoint them or myself.
2012 so has been my year, and its not over.
I need to keep rubbing my positive energy off on people because as much as i think it doesn't cheer people up or people dont pay attention to me, they actually do and that's what people remember me for

Peace and Love.
Luvin' C*
&not this cough.

March 20, 2012


This past weekend was hectic. Friday was the start of spring break for me and i partied it up with my club, West Indian Culture Club and the brothers of Beta Kappa Psi Fraternity, Inc. I had a loverly time and basically danced the night away because i NEVER party.
Then on saturday, i woke up at about 4pm, made my rounds through New Jersey, saw my grandmomz, who is up from Dominica, and visited my god sisi for a lil bit before heading back to the hood.
Sunday, i woke up and decided to go to PA for this Kappa Probate at East Stroudsburg University.
Im soooo glad I went. 
History was made.
After 20+ years, a member of the National Panhellenic Council is finally recognized on that campus. 
The Mu Beta Chapter of Kappa Alpha Psi Fraternity, Inc was brought back to life and the celebration was great. 
They had a luncheon which i attended with my reflection, Deanna, and sisi from another, Minette. We enjoyed music, had a few laughs, and took in the probate, wishing deep down inside it was us...but that's another story for another day....
All in all, the day was wonderful.
with the sun beaming and the birds churpping, seven distinguished gentlemen made their way into the revival of a brotherhood and bond that'll never be broken and I am proud to say i was there to see and document it.

March 13, 2012


Hey world
Over here on the east coast, its warming up a tad too fast and folk dont know how to act!!!! 
Booty shorts were out in full swing today.
at a nice 73 degrees.
But some folk had no business wearing shorts, or a shirt.
no business at all.
seriously, i was walking down the hall of the UC and this big girl who is known to wear booty shorts when her body is not presentable...brung out the coochie-cutters today. i appreciate the confidence the girl has an all, but at least try and tone it up....somehow, some way. Its never too late to hit the gym boo. plus she had cottage cheese and had the nerve to tell her girl, "it's so hot, i could def go for some ice cream right now"
I am a realist and i call it how i see it. I love when i can look at someone and say...
"damn, they look like they take care of themselves".
Now im not saying if you're big, you dont take care of yourself, not the case.
But some people, big/small/smedim/medium whatever, just dont take care of themselves and thats what erks me. 
I like to see people live a long time (seeing as how i worked in a nursing home for about six years), so i figure the way you "keep yourself up" def plays a role in that whole longevity situation.
Idk, maybe its just me.
Luvin' C*
&not my allergies.

March 1, 2012


I just heard the version with c.breezy on it.....
music is music.
well, hello there folks.
Im here.
alive and totally engulfed in my bed right now.
I feel like i live for two things: breakfast and hitting the sheets after a lonnnnngggggg day.
I take great pride in knowing these two things will always make me happy and excited
As of write now, i'm blogging and checking emails.
My brain is too fried to put on music at this stage in the game.
Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday will always be the death of me but as long as i have Friday, Saturday, and Sunday off.....Im loving it. Well i technically dont have those days "off" but im not a schedule.
my days usually incorporate class, work, meetings, reading the depressing ass news, a variation of studying, eating, sometimes napping (yes, even on campus), and working out.
as of late, my workouts have been going INNNN on me lol but it must be done. not just for a "summer body" but because it is a lifestyle and i wanna be around for 
and ever 
and everer.
everyone says i need a boyfriend OR
i need to relax, take a break, and go out.
Ill take going out for $1,000.
My sisi from anotha is having a birthday celebration on saturday nite and i may go but my blood sisi may not
teary face b/c i may have nothing to wear if my relfection doesnt bring the closet of newly online ordered clothes she bought these last couple of months.
eh we'll see how that goes
Luvin' C*