May 23, 2012

Graduation Aftermath

After graduation, i went to lunch with my family, then slept the rest of the day away. Friday, i was supposed to see "Avengers" with my friend but he bailed on me because his registration for his car was expired. Saturday i had a good run, went to the Kappa/Que "Pretty Nasty" BBQ and i had my shindig.....

Me at thee graduation shindig. thank you to all that came out (which wasnt much). I was kinda disappointed at the turnout. It maddens me that i bend over backwards for my "friends" to go to their little events and shindigs by going to the moon and back and no one has the courtesy to show up to mine.....That's why i say i have no friends, because i really do not have anyone to really depend on.

 Well this is from the NYC AIDS WALK I did this past Sunday. Everyone knows i drive everywhere and i really dont do public transportation because its not dependable (my boss really got at me for it b/c of that little tidbit) so i drove myself to NYC after the disappointment that was my shindig to cheer myself up.
Getting to NYC wasnt hard at all. People always talking about how terrified they are to drive in the city because of whatever reason. its really not that bad.
So i got to central park, parked my hooptie in a garage, and made my way to the walk. Even though i went by myself, i was meeting up with my girl Marva. After walking for what felt like an eternity, i found her and we walked the 6.2 miles together, even though i finished before her. after walking for aids, i made my way back to my car but totally forgot what street i parked dumb as walked more blocks that i was supposed to  and ended up calling my momz when i was just stumped. *NOTE: i will not call my mom, esp when i know she really cannot help me and my phone is dying and all she does is yell at me for going to NYC alone and forgetting where i parked* 
Then i had a Eureka moment!!!!
I remembered i parked in a garage and i would need a ticket to get my car out and that ticket would have the garage address on it!!!!!
I felt stupid.
After that whole fiasco, i was sooooooo elated to be seeing the streets of New Jersey after i got outta the Lincoln Tunnel. It was a huge sigh a relief.
Since i was too tired for my life, i camped out at my boy house in Jersey City while i recouped because driving to plainfield felt like i would be driving to texas at that moment. it was hot and i was sore from walking in the sun so I ended up staying thee entire afternoon and we just chilled and watched the nba playoffs and movies. nothing serious.
nice way to spend the afternoon.

Luvin' C*

May 21, 2012


I feel mushy.
Like Love mushy.
Kinda weird and i have no clue where this is coming from and even though i am "talking" to someone, its not really love worthy for me, if that makes any sense.
Sheesh, anyone can be loved but I just dont feel that love for him. 
That "i cant stop thinking about you....i dont mind texting you 24/ like my cookiness even though you dont understand overstand my moods and dont get offended when i'm "mean" dont mind me hitting on you at the gym even though were my spontaneity....kinda love
I know i said i really do not care the race/ethnicity....but i have given alot of guys a chance and i cant help it but i always go back to the black man.
I want that Black Love.
I want my Barack Obama.
I went to a Kappa/Que BBQ this past Saturday and was and always will be smitten by an educated black man. The man that is looking at and working towards his future. The man that knows his power and charm and knows how to use it. The man that is brave and authentic and true to himself. The man that knows how to take defeat and learn from it. The man that realizes the woman of his dreams is not Halle Berry, Kim Kardashian, or Rihanna, but an actual real woman in the flesh, and she is right in front of him. Trust, there's more to a woman than her "beauty" and booty. The man that understands that he needs a woman to not only match his physical, but his intellectual as well and that's all the beauty of his woman.
I'm not knocking interracial love, because trust, i've given it a chance, but as of right now, i know what i want and need.
Love it.
Luvin' C*
That's all

May 17, 2012

Proud of Us

 These top two are from Minette's Grad Party last Saturday :)

 Prudential Center
Newark, NJ
Seriously, the entire morning was too early for my life. I didn't really sleep because i was too excited, then i didnt eat breakfast because i wanted to get good parking (which i did)....
 ^^me. being silly^^

 Yessss i was one of those ppl that decorated their cap. Mine said "All For You, Mom Dad Cane&Gee, Luv U"
 THEEE Infamous Cane and Gee
 My Pop having words with Mum
 Parentals and I looking flyer than ever.
Without these two I would be stuck in Pennsylvania scratching my eyes out.
 Silly Kids. Gee is heavy.
 My reflection and I
 Curty being curty. My mum complains i pose too much
 My Gram, Toma. She came allllll the way from Dominica, not necessarily for my graduation but for health reasons and ended up being in the states longer than expected. I am greatly she was here for this special day. I remember when she used to chase us around with a broom when we were kids and me and Deanna jumped on her when she dooped us into going into a lizard field back in Dominica about 17 years ago (dammmnnnn thats a long time)......aww the memories

i love this girl. even though she's a little dramatic, we been through alot in the year and a half that i've known her and our friendship is only beginning.
 THEE Infamous Greg and Manny.
These guys are too much for my life and too many in depth convo's have taken place between me and these guys (im gonna miss those therapy sessions). I just hope Greg remebers little ole' me when he makes it big in the rap game (and yous know me, i dont endorse "rappers" but this man is an ARTIST...there's a difference)
 Mr. Kev....smh. I hated this guy at one point. and i mean with a passion. he would come into the game room like his ish dont stick. i would say hi to him and he would look at me like i'm an alien. he's Manny's best friend and eventually got to know me and i got to know him slowly but surely. He's not as bad as i thought he was PLUS he's from my current hood, Plainfield
i hate that place.
 Da Trini Bad Gyal Miss Jeri-lee. That girl is hilarious in her own right. I love her accent and enthusiasm. One to set you straight, she has common sense and I LOVE THAT.
 All three of, Jeri-lee, and Ernst make up West Indian Culture Club's first E-Board.
I'm proud.
(I made my own cord and everything...)
Rahjan. This intelligent black man is going places. As of right now, i'm tryna get on his level and I know i will get there sooner than i think. He's gonna be making moves, plus he's a handsome Kappa Man
I am so elated i went to Kean University and met the people I have. In the two years i've been here, they made my experience all the more special. I wish i could've gotten all the people i wanted to but trying to find your people in a sea of about too damn many while you have a headache and starving for gum is no fun.....Some don't understand what its like to have a degree that you worked sooooooooo hard for, all the complaining about papers, the long hours in the library accompanied by 3 hot chocolates and 2 lemon pound cakes, the sitting in traffic to get to that 8 o'clock on time, the most bangingest meals from Main Attractions and the smoothies from the Cougar's Den, all the probates and Downs events, the lovely parking and insane trolley's, the community service, and like i said, the people.
You make the life you want.
No one can stop you. I've realized the only person stopping me from doing what I want, is myself. I make my decisions and even though my family may not agree with it, i have to learn and experience life on my own and for myself.
My entire time at Kean was a learning experience. I grew up soooooooo much from when I first moved back to Jersey to get that degree. Through all my trials and tribulations, i stuck through and I am proud to say i have a  Bachelor's of Arts degree in Psychology from Kean University and no one can take that from me
(not even Middle States).
I love my school and I am proud to be a Cougar....nooo not that kind of Cougar (lol) but a Kean University Cougar.
and to all those students who talk bad about Kean, get your facts straight, do your own research rather than listen to "people" and your opinions will change.
Luvin' C*
P.S. I start my new job on Monday and I have another interview on the 25th.....this broad plays no games with the de niro....i gotta pay those loans back. one job is not enough for me, i need to stay busy.

May 13, 2012

It's Coming

Today is Mother's Day
I honestly tell my momz i love her just about everyday so today is no different.
This woman has everything she could possibly want and need soooo i made her a mug
Since she loves going on cruises, i drew the beach, with the sun beaming and birds chirping along with a boat somewhere in the mix. 
It looks brilliant.
She comes home in a few and that's when i'll spring my artistic abilities on her.
My grandma is staying with us for a while and so we invited a bunch of family over to have a Mother's Day Dinner. Straight grilling steak, chicken, and shrimpers along with other caribbean dishes on the menu.
Its making me hungry thinking about it. 
Today will be great.
This entire weekend was great...
(i should've started with yesterday)
YESTERDAY my girl Minette graduated from the illustrious East Stroudsburg University and we went to grad party allllll the waaaaayyyyy in the backwoods of Pennsylvania......
(thats her in the middle)
I cannot say how proud i am of this young lady. She is so strong willed and kinda crazy that i love it. I met her through my sister, but have grown to love her like my own. She's one i can truly call a friend and she deserves everything she works for
All in all, we had a great time, sang, and danced (our table was SWV but with 6 girls instead of 3)
Much love.
As for me, i walk across that stage at the Prudential Center on Thursday May 17 and i will be balling my eyes out. as much as i hated Kean, i met the right people, got my facts straight, and it grew on me. I wish i would've went here for my 4 years instead of the short 2 i did. time flies when you're making moves.
I finally made the event on FB for my lil party "THEE Graduation ShinDig" to be held at Park East. Hopefully people come, if not, i'll have fun by my damn self
Mmmm this week is going to be both hectic and fun but i'm beyond ready for all He has to offer me
Luvin' C*

May 6, 2012

My Days are numbered

I AM ALIVE!!!!!!
I just been out and about and sleeping in between all that :)
11 days.
11 days until what you may ask....
I walk across that stage and receive a "make believe degree" i will have to pick up months after the fact.
I'm satisfied.
My grad school endeavors have been put on hold until Spring 2013 but hopefully this summer i'll be able to get my money up and take the 2 courses i need to start my program.
As of right now, i am in a good place. I went to a psychic before and she told me everything will work out for me sooner than i think and so far, it is. 
And a friend of mine also had a weird/random dream about me, basically along the lines of me being successful and prosperous way sooner than i expect
I'm cool with that.
even though i was a little bummed that i wouldn't be starting grad school in the fall, i'm glad i got accepted.
Luckily for me, i already found a job. Its not necessarily in my field per se but it works, its a start, and it pays...i wasnt looking for an internship opportunity and this came about, so i took it. emailed my resume and cover letter, had the phone interview, and got the job.
The money i'll make from this job will hopefully pay for the two classes i wanna take as well as my rent......
i'm seriously tryna make moves and not really tryna depend on momz&popz for too too much.
trust, they will still be in the loop
These next couple weeks will be nice, full, and busy.
I wish i could eat this right now.